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Damn near 200 songs.

Posted by SynthGoddess - November 15th, 2018

I can't keep up with all of my "songs" anymore. It's getting to that point, it seems like. I have over 200 songs just floating in my disk space...none of them seem to be of any value. Being a "producer" as a hobby is really taxing. If you don't have the best confidence, it can literally ruin you and tear you apart bit by bit, day by day, as you sit staring at a screen and playing away at keys. It's like, nothing I make is "good enough", but I can't do anything but keep making music...because it's the music making that's saved my life multiple times. I owe it everything...but it doesn't owe me shit. What shall I do? What shall I do? It would be a dream come true to get out of this...

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That comment touched my heart, I've created an account here although I didn't have one in the first place, just to forward this message to you, so please listen...
basically I'm the same, I'm a singer, lyrics writer, vocal mixing and editor, however I'm not that famous....you could say I'm just like what you described in your comment.

but you gotta admit that doing it for yourself is better than doing it for others, at least that's the only thing you can do at the moment but aside from all of that, I do understand music, so you've got talent, it's something extraordinary and I'm not kidding!

I would like to work with you, also, even if you are not gonna continue well it's still good that you do have the rest of your work, don't delete them, it's always good to save work as a backup online just in case if something happens.

You just made my night! Ahh, while I've been trying to work hard at music since posting this, it's been really hard not to just chuck production to the side. It's so taxing, because my dreams in production seem so unattainable but...making music is a part of me. I think it's awesome that you sing! I'd love to hear you sing sometime!