And if you did give up making music, what would you do with your free time?
You like doing it, it probably helps you to relax, and it allows you to effectively express yourself despite your "shit" attitude (as you refer to it). If you feel alone, participate on the forums, or on the chat. Many of the assholes there are surprisingly supportive when they feel it's necessary. Helps stave off the loneliness, too.
Why stop making music anyhow? I wish I could confidently purchase a DAW and get into music. In all likelihood, work would leave me too exhausted to want to learn something new like that, and I'd just go right back to video games and my lackluster blog, because I still enjoy those while horribly fatigued.
I don't like to provide vague advice, but I don't know enough to be of more help, so I apologize if my words come across as shallow and insufficient.
BlueAlpha14
Part of me wants to tell you not to give up but I've kinda given up EDM myself ://